why do i have to love and then hurt. why i cant love someone
that show me his love. why i choose someone who don't love me,
and just always pissing me off and a jerk..Maybe because of that
im in love with him.Im with this guy but in love with This other
guy.i dont know my life is so damn difficult.i tried to let him out
of my mind and never let him back in my mind.but i can't. to hard
for me.im really2 trully inlove with him. i cant do anything.
everytime im with him,i feel like i dont want any other guys. i just
want him to hold me,talk to me and hold my hands. But actually i tried
to avoid him,wont go everytime he calls.but i can't. something will
make me come to him.why things have to be like this? its really hard
for me to accept.I've been heartbroken since ever! why should i like
someone which i am very sure won't end up with me?im sick of this feelings.
sick of things that never right with me,unfair all the time.But none of
that makes me blame ALLAH. i know he loves me and always give me this
kind of difficult things so i can learn and be more mature.

but seriously im really upset

i think

now,nothing is getting better,everything seems to be to the worst
each day. everyday new bad news,bad news and bad news.
im rememberin my school days constantly nowdays.i just miss it.
now,everything seems harder each day. i cant take control on everything.
I dont understand why so hard.

i like him damn much. and i dont like this feelings. he's not mine and
never will be mine. but why he's in my mind. and making me so high when
he was with me. i cant accept the fact that he has gf and im just a
girl that have no feelings to him. he makes me likes him so much,but then
he just left. wtf. he gives me hope on him,and give me the life to live
in this college but then.wtf. he crash it. i cant seem to understand myself.
why i like him. he's nothing better than anyone. eiu. :P

i have to get him out of my mind. hehehe.
yes yes. i have too. he's discusting :)

sorry for myself

i know ive been spending money alot since i became
so-called student.im sorry mom and dad. i dont know what
i do with my money. FOODS la ! :(

well,ive decided not to have many friends. but i cant avoid
them,and when i have a chance then i cant control myself.
it is as if,i really need them in my daily life.why so?
even myself dont get it.

ive been very busy and tired. and i dont know what ive been doing
sometimes i love my college life,but sometimes i dont. it makes
me thinks to much of everything. and make me migraine most of
my days.. shit, but life must go on :)

IM STRONG!!! FIGHTING.

oh yea. oh i have fun with the koreans,they are very nice,indeed,
very cute, and funnY!

aww i need to stop loving,thinking,liking and missing YOU!

cio!