why do i have to love and then hurt. why i cant love someone
that show me his love. why i choose someone who don't love me,
and just always pissing me off and a jerk..Maybe because of that
im in love with him.Im with this guy but in love with This other
guy.i dont know my life is so damn difficult.i tried to let him out
of my mind and never let him back in my mind.but i can't. to hard
for me.im really2 trully inlove with him. i cant do anything.
everytime im with him,i feel like i dont want any other guys. i just
want him to hold me,talk to me and hold my hands. But actually i tried
to avoid him,wont go everytime he calls.but i can't. something will
make me come to him.why things have to be like this? its really hard
for me to accept.I've been heartbroken since ever! why should i like
someone which i am very sure won't end up with me?im sick of this feelings.
sick of things that never right with me,unfair all the time.But none of
that makes me blame ALLAH. i know he loves me and always give me this
kind of difficult things so i can learn and be more mature.

but seriously im really upset